I'm super busy at work clearing things out so no time to really type right now. My last day is Wednesday and there is a LOT to be done!
I'm busy cleaning stuff out, filing stuff, organizing what is personal and what is office, etc. We're dissolving and a chunk of people are going to a new firm but I am not going with them. I will have severance until Feb. 20th.
I am super excited to get to be home with Roo and I can't wait for 2009 and all of the amazing changes!
Dear Lorelai,
Today, December 10 2008, you were eating some dried fruit with dinner and decided to shove a dried blueberry up your itty bitty baby nose. Why did you do that?
At first it was kinda funny. A blueberry in my child's nose...classic!
It took us 2 hours to get it out!! We tried blowing but you wouldn't blow hard enough, we tried sneezing and that helped loosen it but then you'd sniffle and suck it back up. We tried using a nose suctioner to help loosen it with the force of the air. That helped suck the piles of snot your body was making to help eject it.
It wasn't funny anymore. Momma was getting worried and it wasn't coming out. You weren't laughing anymore either. You were screaming. Snot was pouring down your face...along with tears.
Auntie Kevi had to help hold you down while I tried to get it out. No luck. Then Dadda came home and helped hold you down too...still no luck!
The doctor said we had to take you to the hospital if we couldn't get you to blow it out. It was bedtime but you weren't allowed to go to sleep because you could have choked on it in your sleep if it moved.
Finally we went to Grandma's house as a last attempt before the hospital. After almost an hour there you FINALLY sneezed it out! But we couldn't find it and weren't sure if you had actually sneezed it out or not. We had to hold you down more to look up with a flashlight...and we didn't see anything.
Daddy was worried that you had sucked it too deep to see and you would choke. Grandma thought maybe I was wrong and it was just a scab (since you just LOVE to pick your nose) and the scab had come out. But Momma KNEW it was a blueberry and knew that it was too big for you to suck further up than it was.
We let you play for a few minutes to calm down and when Momma bent down to pick you up she saw a blueberry on the carpet. A soggy, snot covered, falling apart blueberry! IT CAME OUT!!!
You were so happy that we stopped holding you down. Poor baby! You didn't know why we were torturing you or why your nose hurt. You kept pointing to your nose and saying "momma nose ow! nose ow!"
Now that you're okay and we know that the blueberry is in fact out it is kinda funny again. My silly girl. No more blueberries in your nose! Or anything else!
We're going to really have to work on you not picking your nose anymore. I thought that just ignoring it would make you stop eventually...but if you're going to progress from fingers up the nose to FOOD up the nose you HAVE to stop!
My little blueberry girl. You're sleeping soundly now and we can go to bed too. I love you so much.
Love,
Momma
Its too early to tell the gender still...but the "leg" shot looked EXACTLY like Roo's leg shot, and it was really clear she was a girl. If Kevi was a few weeks further along I'd say that she's having a girl. Even now I think she is...and I thought that before she got this ultrasound.
But we'll see this summer...or possibly with a future ultrasound. She's not sure yet if she's going to get another one next month or not. She had this one because the fetal heartbeat wasn't as strong as they expected at this gestational age. Did I already post about this? I can't remember now. Oh well!
Oh and it TOTALLY has the same nose as Roo! We compared ultrasounds last night and Roo's profile looks so similar! The nose is the same, the mouth is almost the same. The chin is different...Roo has Jason's chin without a doubt and BK fetus has Ben's.
The most exciting part of the ultrasound to Kevi....the spine is straight, aligned and NORMAL!! Kevi has scroliosis and its really bad so this was a HUGE concern of hers.
Kevi had an ultrasound today because the fetal heartbeat was not as strong as the doctor thought it should be. She's 15 weeks and everything looks great. Probably just a bad position. She's due May 31, don't know the gender yet. I get to see the pictures when I get home today but she texted me one...very clearly a little hand...so cute...and freaky!
Tomorrow...a post about my birthday present from Jason (shhh, I don't know its a Chi!!!), this weekend's drama with B&K, and hopefully pictures of Roo! :)
I want one for manic depression. Not sure if you're depressed, stable, manic, hypomanic, mixed state....and to what degree? Prick your finger, put a drop of blood on the paper, put into the machine....wait 5 seconds and get your reading.
That would make life so much easier!
If you see a post that says "_______ filter" on it and you DO NOT want to be in that filter just comment and let me know. :) No offense will be taken, of course! After I get the filters figured out I'll post what they are so you can let me know if there are any you DO specifically want to be in or not be in.
Constant fighting and bickering and friends attacking each other and no place to just be YOU. I feel like who I am is suffering and I don't want that.
I've changed A LOT since I was last really active here and I will not apologize for that, nor will I pretend that it isn't true. I'm not the same person. Some of you may find that to be good...and some may find that to be bad.
Quite frankly...do with it what you wish. If you wish to delete me from your friends page (if you havn't already thanks to me being MIA) go for it, its YOUR friends page!
So...who am I? I'm still Jeni. :) I'm still Jason's wife and Rory's momma. I'm still funny, sarcastic, witty and moody. I'm much more confident and secure with who I am and not afraid to stand up and say "this is what I believe" or "this is how I chose to live my life."
Things in my life are going pretty great!
Jason and I are doing amazing, but that has taken a LOT of work. We got really close to the D-word at one point. :\
Roo is growing and is the most wonderful, perfect, gorgeous human being! She talks up a storm. She walks/runs everywhere, she tattles, she giggles, she claps, she sings. Her newest....she says "I love you" (i wub ya) and gives kisses WITHOUT PROMPTING! Seriously, life does not get any sweeter than that!
She is still nursing, of course, and missed the memo that babies usually start to cut back by her age. Thats totally okay with me! :) She's still a dinky little thing at 13 months and 17.5lbs but she's totally healthy and has chunky thighs.
We have moved into a townhouse with Ben and Kevi...and Xena! :) I am loving having a yard and gardens. We're all loving all of the space and the amazing sunlight that comes into the home.
Here are a bunch of pictures.
( Read more... )
They decided Thursday night to elope on Friday. (Sound familiar to anyone? haha)
I'm SO happy for them! Kevi is awesome and absolutly PERFECT for Ben. I have the best sister in law ever, seriously!
I took off work on Friday and went with them, with Roo. The same celebrant married them and me & Jason. :) I took a million pictures and now they are in Florida on their Honeymoon. They already had planned for a vacation this week so it was perfect timing to make it a honeymoon.
This week I will celebrate Nana's long happy life. This week I will remember only the good memories with Ryan.
This week I will be organized mentally and display that organization by being organized with the things around me.
This week I will show Jason my love and appreciation for him. This week I will do something nice for him each day.
This week I will feel good about my body. This week I will work to improve my body without beating myself up.
This week I will be happy.
I'm sad, mostly because she never got to meet Roo.
I have to say though - that is how I want to die. She was 95 years old. She lived a long, happy life. She spent the last few months of her life looking at pictures of her great great grandaughter. She was lucid and able to talk, walk and write up until the last couple weeks. She went to sleep and didn't wake up.
Jason and I had a nice romantic dinner last night and then I got a 30ish minute long massage...during which I fell asleep! :)
I ran to the thrift store when he got home from work and picked up Carrabaas on the way home (YUMMY) and then we got candles lit and sat down to eat....and Roo woke up.
Then we tried again 2 hours later - wonderful!!
Today we're going ice skating and then to dinner while Kayla watches Roo. We talked casually during dinner about how to make "year 3" better than "year 2" and we both think that focusing on each other as partners and not just co-parents is extremly important.
I'm very optomistic about this year!
If you never comment or post in your journal but still log in and read and would like to stay let me know. Otherwise, no "please keep me" is needed. I have some people who havn't updated or commented in over a year, those are the ones going.
As far as communities...I don't even know where to start. I just need to thin it out a LOT.
I'm on the verge of abandoning LJ all together, but there are some people I only talk to her and I don't want to do that cause I like talking to some of these people and I do really like some of the communities.
If you're reading my journal you probably can tell that I'm pretty damn opinionated. I make NO apologies for that. If you have a problem with my opinions then feel free to leave my journal. I won't be upset, I won't come crying at your journal to add me back. No hard feelings.
Those of you who actually know me (and some that just know me online) know that even though I have VERY strong convictions and am VERY passionate about some things I'm still able to accept other people's views...even if I 100% disagree. But that doesn't mean that I'm going to keep my mouth shut about it!
In my journal I will not filter my feelings for yours. Its my journal. In your journal I will, its your journal. In a community I'll find what I consider to be a middle ground. That middle ground isn't me saying "oh its okay" it will most likely be me saying "this is how I feel and here's why" but I'll leave out the "and here are all the reasons you are so effing wrong" that would be put in my journal.
Any questions? Stay. Leave. Debate it. Whatever.
Oh and if you're friending me just to get the "good stuff" get a life instead. Seriously...thats what myspace is for, go join it and you'll find some seriously "good stuff."
Even better...I'm nursing her once we get there and get settled. She always eats as soon as we get home so I know she'll be hungry.
Leave feedback for old cloth diaper purchases
Cry
Clean bathroom
Sew diaper liners
Sew covers (YAY! the FOE arrived!)
Pump Pump and Pump
Take a BATH
Cry
Watch Intervention
Do the dishes
Make some cookie dough
Blow my nose another million times
Cry
Put away Roo's clothes
