Jaycee

Happy Christmas

2008-12-29T14:11:21Z

I hope that everyone had a great Christmas (and for those who don't celebrate...I hope that the 25th was a great day and that any religious or spiritual celebrations you have had recently or are having soon are great)!

I'm super busy at work clearing things out so no time to really type right now. My last day is Wednesday and there is a LOT to be done!

3 days

2008-12-23T18:13:51Z

Three days...and then I'm a stay at home momma! I have 1/2 a day left today and then I work Monday, Tuesday and a 1/2 day Wednesday. Thats it and then I'm officially laid off. I got notice yesterday and the 31st is my last day.

I'm busy cleaning stuff out, filing stuff, organizing what is personal and what is office, etc. We're dissolving and a chunk of people are going to a new firm but I am not going with them. I will have severance until Feb. 20th.

I am super excited to get to be home with Roo and I can't wait for 2009 and all of the amazing changes!

Letter to Rory

2008-12-11T04:08:17Z

Dear Lorelai,

Today, December 10 2008, you were eating some dried fruit with dinner and decided to shove a dried blueberry up your itty bitty baby nose. Why did you do that?

At first it was kinda funny. A blueberry in my child's nose...classic!

It took us 2 hours to get it out!! We tried blowing but you wouldn't blow hard enough, we tried sneezing and that helped loosen it but then you'd sniffle and suck it back up. We tried using a nose suctioner to help loosen it with the force of the air. That helped suck the piles of snot your body was making to help eject it.

It wasn't funny anymore. Momma was getting worried and it wasn't coming out. You weren't laughing anymore either. You were screaming. Snot was pouring down your face...along with tears.

Auntie Kevi had to help hold you down while I tried to get it out. No luck. Then Dadda came home and helped hold you down too...still no luck!

The doctor said we had to take you to the hospital if we couldn't get you to blow it out. It was bedtime but you weren't allowed to go to sleep because you could have choked on it in your sleep if it moved.

Finally we went to Grandma's house as a last attempt before the hospital. After almost an hour there you FINALLY sneezed it out! But we couldn't find it and weren't sure if you had actually sneezed it out or not. We had to hold you down more to look up with a flashlight...and we didn't see anything.

Daddy was worried that you had sucked it too deep to see and you would choke. Grandma thought maybe I was wrong and it was just a scab (since you just LOVE to pick your nose) and the scab had come out. But Momma KNEW it was a blueberry and knew that it was too big for you to suck further up than it was.

We let you play for a few minutes to calm down and when Momma bent down to pick you up she saw a blueberry on the carpet. A soggy, snot covered, falling apart blueberry! IT CAME OUT!!!

You were so happy that we stopped holding you down. Poor baby! You didn't know why we were torturing you or why your nose hurt. You kept pointing to your nose and saying "momma nose ow! nose ow!"

Now that you're okay and we know that the blueberry is in fact out it is kinda funny again. My silly girl. No more blueberries in your nose! Or anything else!

We're going to really have to work on you not picking your nose anymore. I thought that just ignoring it would make you stop eventually...but if you're going to progress from fingers up the nose to FOOD up the nose you HAVE to stop!

My little blueberry girl. You're sleeping soundly now and we can go to bed too. I love you so much.

Love,

Momma

Niece?

2008-12-10T14:11:03Z

Kevi showed me her ultrasound pictures last night! She's 15w3d today. She got 8 pictures, including 1 3d one (those are freaky and how the fetus' hand was made it look like there was no hand. creepy!)

Its too early to tell the gender still...but the "leg" shot looked EXACTLY like Roo's leg shot, and it was really clear she was a girl. If Kevi was a few weeks further along I'd say that she's having a girl. Even now I think she is...and I thought that before she got this ultrasound.

But we'll see this summer...or possibly with a future ultrasound. She's not sure yet if she's going to get another one next month or not. She had this one because the fetal heartbeat wasn't as strong as they expected at this gestational age. Did I already post about this? I can't remember now. Oh well!

Oh and it TOTALLY has the same nose as Roo! We compared ultrasounds last night and Roo's profile looks so similar! The nose is the same, the mouth is almost the same. The chin is different...Roo has Jason's chin without a doubt and BK fetus has Ben's.

The most exciting part of the ultrasound to Kevi....the spine is straight, aligned and NORMAL!! Kevi has scroliosis and its really bad so this was a HUGE concern of hers.

Workin out!

2008-12-09T19:53:03Z

I'm doing SO good eating healthy (including eating ENOUGH) and working out! :) I'm so incredibly sore right now...but I love it! The workout routine I'm doing right now is really intense...but its awesome! :)

Kevi had an ultrasound today because the fetal heartbeat was not as strong as the doctor thought it should be. She's 15 weeks and everything looks great. Probably just a bad position. She's due May 31, don't know the gender yet. I get to see the pictures when I get home today but she texted me one...very clearly a little hand...so cute...and freaky!

24 on the 24th!

2008-11-24T20:27:11Z

Yep...its my 24th Birthday!!! woo hoo!

Tomorrow...a post about my birthday present from Jason (shhh, I don't know its a Chi!!!), this weekend's drama with B&K, and hopefully pictures of Roo! :)

Sability Blood Test

2008-11-07T16:26:45Z

You know those little finger prick machines for diabetics to check their blood sugar?

I want one for manic depression. Not sure if you're depressed, stable, manic, hypomanic, mixed state....and to what degree? Prick your finger, put a drop of blood on the paper, put into the machine....wait 5 seconds and get your reading.

That would make life so much easier!

Filters

2008-11-05T21:04:51Z

Just an FYI to everyone...I'm going to be cleaning out my filters, changing some, adding some, deleting some, etc.

If you see a post that says "_______ filter" on it and you DO NOT want to be in that filter just comment and let me know. :) No offense will be taken, of course! After I get the filters figured out I'll post what they are so you can let me know if there are any you DO specifically want to be in or not be in.

Here to stay

2008-11-05T19:29:24Z

I'm phasing out CafeMom. Its just...not live journal!

Constant fighting and bickering and friends attacking each other and no place to just be YOU. I feel like who I am is suffering and I don't want that.

I've changed A LOT since I was last really active here and I will not apologize for that, nor will I pretend that it isn't true. I'm not the same person. Some of you may find that to be good...and some may find that to be bad.

Quite frankly...do with it what you wish. If you wish to delete me from your friends page (if you havn't already thanks to me being MIA) go for it, its YOUR friends page!

So...who am I? I'm still Jeni. :) I'm still Jason's wife and Rory's momma. I'm still funny, sarcastic, witty and moody. I'm much more confident and secure with who I am and not afraid to stand up and say "this is what I believe" or "this is how I chose to live my life."

I've been MIA, I know!

2008-07-01T20:38:44Z

I've been on cafemom a LOT and not here.

Things in my life are going pretty great!

Jason and I are doing amazing, but that has taken a LOT of work. We got really close to the D-word at one point. :\

Roo is growing and is the most wonderful, perfect, gorgeous human being! She talks up a storm. She walks/runs everywhere, she tattles, she giggles, she claps, she sings. Her newest....she says "I love you" (i wub ya) and gives kisses WITHOUT PROMPTING! Seriously, life does not get any sweeter than that!

She is still nursing, of course, and missed the memo that babies usually start to cut back by her age. Thats totally okay with me! :) She's still a dinky little thing at 13 months and 17.5lbs but she's totally healthy and has chunky thighs.

We have moved into a townhouse with Ben and Kevi...and Xena! :) I am loving having a yard and gardens. We're all loving all of the space and the amazing sunlight that comes into the home.

Here are a bunch of pictures.

1 Year Old!

Camping

Camping

Camping

Head rubbing with her horse

Riding Chourney, Pop Pop's horse

With Grandma on Papa's boat

Playing "poke out Xenas eyeballs while she tries to sleep"

Riding her first car at her birthday party

Ben & Kevi

2008-04-07T14:48:18Z

BEN AND KEVI ARE MARRIED!!! :)

They decided Thursday night to elope on Friday. (Sound familiar to anyone? haha)

I'm SO happy for them! Kevi is awesome and absolutly PERFECT for Ben. I have the best sister in law ever, seriously!

I took off work on Friday and went with them, with Roo. The same celebrant married them and me & Jason. :) I took a million pictures and now they are in Florida on their Honeymoon. They already had planned for a vacation this week so it was perfect timing to make it a honeymoon.

thunderofsins @ 2008-03-25T11:32:00

2008-03-25T15:32:37Z

I just sent a few pictures to James and automatically got a second set together and addressed for Nana. :(

This week

2008-03-10T14:00:52Z

This week I will have a good week. This week I will focus on the positive. This week I will not dwell on the past, nor will I worry about the future.

This week I will celebrate Nana's long happy life. This week I will remember only the good memories with Ryan.

This week I will be organized mentally and display that organization by being organized with the things around me.

This week I will show Jason my love and appreciation for him. This week I will do something nice for him each day.

This week I will feel good about my body. This week I will work to improve my body without beating myself up.

This week I will be happy.

Nana update

2008-03-09T13:51:11Z

Nana passed away in her sleep at 7:17pm Saturday. She was in no pain, thanks to pain meds, and went very peacefully. Her kidneys failed Friday morning and her heart started failing Saturday afternoon. She died of old age.

I'm sad, mostly because she never got to meet Roo.

I have to say though - that is how I want to die. She was 95 years old. She lived a long, happy life. She spent the last few months of her life looking at pictures of her great great grandaughter. She was lucid and able to talk, walk and write up until the last couple weeks. She went to sleep and didn't wake up.

thunderofsins @ 2008-02-26T21:48:00

2008-02-27T02:48:51Z

don't worry i'm still alive. just away from LJ a lot right now. if you ever wanna reach me just e-mail me! jcmurtha@yahoo.com

thunderofsins @ 2008-02-17T10:36:00

2008-02-17T15:38:26Z

Jason and I had a nice romantic dinner last night and then I got a 30ish minute long massage...during which I fell asleep! :)

I ran to the thrift store when he got home from work and picked up Carrabaas on the way home (YUMMY) and then we got candles lit and sat down to eat....and Roo woke up.

Then we tried again 2 hours later - wonderful!!

Today we're going ice skating and then to dinner while Kayla watches Roo. We talked casually during dinner about how to make "year 3" better than "year 2" and we both think that focusing on each other as partners and not just co-parents is extremly important.

I'm very optomistic about this year!

overextended

2008-02-15T20:52:51Z

Over the next week or so I will be deleting people from my friends list and leaving a lot of communities.

If you never comment or post in your journal but still log in and read and would like to stay let me know. Otherwise, no "please keep me" is needed. I have some people who havn't updated or commented in over a year, those are the ones going.

As far as communities...I don't even know where to start. I just need to thin it out a LOT.

I'm on the verge of abandoning LJ all together, but there are some people I only talk to her and I don't want to do that cause I like talking to some of these people and I do really like some of the communities.

thunderofsins @ 2008-02-13T16:53:00

2008-02-13T21:57:18Z

I don't have much time to post this and I don't have the internet at home, but I wanted to get this out there today. So forgive me if I leave anything out.

If you're reading my journal you probably can tell that I'm pretty damn opinionated. I make NO apologies for that. If you have a problem with my opinions then feel free to leave my journal. I won't be upset, I won't come crying at your journal to add me back. No hard feelings.

Those of you who actually know me (and some that just know me online) know that even though I have VERY strong convictions and am VERY passionate about some things I'm still able to accept other people's views...even if I 100% disagree. But that doesn't mean that I'm going to keep my mouth shut about it!

In my journal I will not filter my feelings for yours. Its my journal. In your journal I will, its your journal. In a community I'll find what I consider to be a middle ground. That middle ground isn't me saying "oh its okay" it will most likely be me saying "this is how I feel and here's why" but I'll leave out the "and here are all the reasons you are so effing wrong" that would be put in my journal.

Any questions? Stay. Leave. Debate it. Whatever.

Oh and if you're friending me just to get the "good stuff" get a life instead. Seriously...thats what myspace is for, go join it and you'll find some seriously "good stuff."

LLL tonight!!!

2008-02-12T19:25:33Z

I'm going to my first LLL (La Leche League) meeting with Roo tonight! YAY! :) I'm super excited, but honestly quite nervous too. :\

Even better...I'm nursing her once we get there and get settled. She always eats as soon as we get home so I know she'll be hungry.

TO DO

2008-02-11T20:42:11Z

Leave feedback for recent Cloth diaper purchases
Leave feedback for old cloth diaper purchases
Cry
Clean bathroom
Sew diaper liners
Sew covers (YAY! the FOE arrived!)
Pump Pump and Pump
Take a BATH
Cry
Watch Intervention
Do the dishes
Make some cookie dough
Blow my nose another million times
Cry
Put away Roo's clothes

allright stalkers

2008-02-08T16:06:48Z

If you're reading my journal but not a "friend" or I just never friended you back and might not even realize you're reading speak up!

I have had a few people recently comment who I didn't even know read my journal. I don't mind, but I'd like to know who you are!!

thunderofsins @ 2008-02-07T21:38:00

2008-02-08T02:38:34Z

i just got out of a bubble bath that jason made for me, while i soaked he put Roo to bed. now he's off to Wendy's to pick up some Frostys. :)

Be jealous...its okay!

Page-a-Day

2008-02-05T15:00:17Z

Today's says:

This month's Wonder Woman is: The woman who finds time for herself every day and doesn't feel guilty.

That is something that I have just started doing lately - finding time. Now I need to work on the "not guilty" part. I didn't do it last night. I was super clingy last night. Irrational fear of being left alone for even a second. Seriously, it was bad.

Right now though I have tons of work to do!

Blue

2008-02-02T16:16:11Z

Blue is WAY too strong for me. He's a good puppy...but he's a puppy. He pulls, he yanks, he jumps, he runs. I need help keeping him under control for a walk when he's hyper. He needs a no-pull type of harness.

I cannot and will not take him out again until he has one. He just hurt me pretty bad. I have leash burn across the top and bottom of my right hand (you know, the one that is sprained) and across the palm of my left hand. My knees are bruised and my back hurts. I can't do this. When he has a no pull harness he is a breeze to walk, a joy even. I could take him and Roo out together and he would happily walk along with us. I want that back! I'm tired of having to sneak out to take him out while Roo sleeps and having to run back in right away. I want to be able to go on nice long walks with the two of them while Jason works.

We're going to have to go up to PetCo or Petsmart TODAY.

In other news...We were going to watch the Superbowl at Ben's house tomorrow but now his cable is wonky.

Eye Update

2008-02-01T22:14:18Z

My dad took me to the doctor and I'm at my parent's house now. Jason and my dad don't want me alone. I'm having an anaphalactic reaction to a spider bite. I'm on medication now, including a steroid shot, and am able to breathe. I'll definately try to get some eye pictures up for you guys on Monday. My dad keeps calling me Rocky. lol

No bruising, of course, but massive swelling. Right now my breathing is okay but it gets bad again and then better again. It got really bad this morning, gasping for breath and starting to panic. My throat is still swollen right now. :\

The steroids that I got prescribed but havn't taken yet (darn pharmacy is slow today) don't allow me to nurse as normal. I'm going to have to pump and dump to keep my supply up but I WILL be able to nurse some. I just have to keep a chart and have a little list of rules of when I can nurse and when I can't based on when I've taken the medication.

I do have to say - I may not be able to find a pro-breastfeeding pediatrician but MY doctor is AWESOME! He could tell right away my priorities were:
1. I need to breathe.
2. I need to nurse.

And he treated me accordingly. There are other things he could have done to clear this up much faster but then I wouldn't be able to nurse for up to a week. He told me about those things but did not push it at all. Once I told him that I don't believe in formula and I only have about 1 days worth of milk pumped he dropped the subject entirely. YAY Dr. G!! :)

OH YEAH In other breastfeeding news, I said something to my dad about Roo's old doctor thinking I shouldn't breastfeed anymore and he said "aren't you supossed to do that until they're like 2?" Who knew the man who gets squeemish and leaves the room or turns his head when I nurse is the ONLY person in my family who knew that. I never told him that and he said it so matter of fact. He rocks. Yay Dad! :)

Now I'm tired of trying to type with one closed eye and one squinty eye. Plus this medication makes me REALLY tired. I'm off to go nap and then wake up and nurse and pump at the same time - joy.